Bittersweet Life

 *It is time to Break The Cycle It's enough for all of us already- It's time to start over -let go of what's behind us ~we cant go back ~ we can not fix anything~ As Parents The current memories made for our children's adult life  is what should be considered and focused on~ Our Relationship with our children is our future. We each are meant for more than this & we're only hindering what's next for us by holding onto what's no longer good for us. If it ever even really was we have to be willing to let go of ties with the past to go forward in a new direction we are intended to be anything more in this new chapter of life we have to give up the old to get the new~ Our words hold power and to much in actions have shown the truth in the light of the many true colors that were always hidden within.  *In a field full of flowers she blends within them her beauty a chameleon she is camouflaged & unseen her wounds appear flawless from the distance, the damag...

 Spiritually~ Cherish Relationships Mentally~ with the trust of a child enjoy the beauty of fun romance & making art  Physically ~ Charm Art & Beauty are the way to do it with a partner & do it romantically. with out action outcome Spiritually ~ The Attraction of cooperation to perfect  Mentally ~ The Power Of Love Pleasure From Decisions About investments, gambles & others gambles  Physically~ Good Times  resulting from the fairness shown by your creations  Spiritually ~ The Attraction cooperation to perfect Spiritual Values  Mentally~ Pleasure from decisions about long range thinking or travel  Physically~ Good times resulting from the fairness shown by what is to be shared. Spiritual~ Cherish Relationships as if it or they came from all there is Mentally~ enjoy the beauty of the Phillies & Laws involved.  Physically~ Charm Art & Beauty are the way to do it with your partners & do it in a Big Way!   

 My Blessing~ Gift From God & My Auntie Marilyn I received a Christmas card today from my Grand Auntie, My Dad's Aunt Marilyn. She is a sister of My grandfather's .. I was filled with delight as I had been expecting it, knowing she had asked for my address earlier this month..  I have started a collection of Christmas cards * am so pleased to have one from a relative. As I drove home from the mailbox I tore it open carefully with the key, I looked only at the cover Thinking what a wonderful card she had chosen for me, what a wonderful gift the card was, all in itself alone. It was exactly what my heart needed, especially now at Christmas and so soon after loosing my Grandma. The card was not just an any day Christmas greeting, but even more thoughtful -a photo cover of an old town (Like Ks where my Granny Wools lived) with an Old Truck just like my Grandfather had many years ago.. With a joy-filled I opened it and before my eyes was an amazing Christmas surprise gift insid...

Day Dreaming By Julie   It's kind of surreal watching the story of my life unfold in front of my eyes, as I try to take a piece of each chapter and have it documented, so bittersweet and extraordinary maybe a little tragic, but no mistake how everything falls into place for how God has planned. 

 How to rewire your brain reprogram your subconscious mind Realizing that  when we become forgetful or have short term memory or full memory loss it is in my opinion that our file cabinet in our mind is full.. our RAM drive is old the mother board is short circuiting or maybe like a record or cassette tape usb flash drive or cd whatever it is we can only fit so many files, I'm no psychologist or scientist But Just Maybe there's only so much storage and so much memory space in our brain... maybe some peoples is smaller than others,, Interesting thought  

 #1 4 breaths (4 second inhale 4 second hold 4 second exhale)- do this 4x #2 1 Hand on forehead & 1 Hand on back of head at the same time #3 Close your eyes Focus on Desire Meditate Write Think Deeply about it Feel It Visualize it 21 days #4 State the Name outloud    repeat while pressing your mind  3/5 things that you can feel see hear or smell about it~  Have the emotion about it #5 Declare This To Be True with certainty Speak aloud Saying with confidence This IS My New Truth and My New Reality The More you believe this is true your brain will work with you because YOu believe it to be true Be In alignment with what you think and what you do Start putting effort into making it come to be by doing things that will lead towards the focus #6 open your eyes  4 breaths (4 second inhale 4 second hold 4 second exhale)- do this 4x #7 Nod head & say yes in confirmation reinforcing your belief Do this daily in 3-7 minutes with the same desire for 21 days at...

2010 and 2011 I had head traumas & on 2 occasions was knocked into a tunnel in my mind.  2010 When it happened, I could hear everything but I couldn't respond strait away- 2011 I heard a voice in the pitch black space I was in, I couldn't see anything not even myself, I was unaware of if I was sitting, standing, laying down, No consciousness of my surroundings being abnormal, no fear, no wonder, no concern and I never spoke, I just heard the voice say "you don't belong here!", a Male voice, Strong and certain, "you have to go back".. I woke up on the floor and peeled myself up very weak but managed and cried I had a bad concussion and had to rest a few days.  Twice during the year 2015  1: I was taking medication that was poisoning my blood with out being aware of it I started having an allergic reaction - I knew I felt off but I kept going to work and doing things at home and about 8 days in i had a bad rash and was very weak & shaky inside.. I ...

    Book TiTle: My Scrambled Egg   Chapters  1 My real life  ghost stories;  2  My experience growing up with parents that were/are addicts my children's fathers cheaters liars addicts.. 3  endured abuse in many forms, even by extended family of family. 4  relationships, experience as a mom, my birth deliveries,  5 jobs and growth process..  6  being used as a tool, an assistant in life a go to person for the weight and blame.  7  Betrayal Abandonment,  8 alcohol/drug abuse at a young age & into 20's/30's..  9 loss, Surviving family of Murder victims, unexpected death/loss, Isaac's illness, family of inmates,  10 counseling, addiction/medication in my current life.  11 envy of people who get help w addictions less than people/parents w/anxiety/ptsd/situational depression/mom-brain, 12 Life being at a stand still,  13 chasing my tail and trying new things.. brainstorming,  14 wa...

 As a kid I enjoyed gymnastics and dance. Playing house, building forts, playing Dolls, barbies, & tv shows Care-bears, Rainbow Bright, teenage mutant ninja turtles, Heathcliff, Garfield Muppet babies ghost-busters & She-rah The Princess of Power from He-man. Beginning as a teen I first was a baby sitter @12 then I started smoking on the roof with a friend from school stayed late after a track meet and messed around with boys at the school ditched one day and touched roaches for a first time tho I didn't smoke until later the next year, with my moms boyfriends niece..  I recently decided to refer to myself as Peaches, tho nobody really knows this unless they ride in my car or see my phone connected to the internet, basically my phone knows.. I started working again with someone I can't remember, maybe it was a lady in my complex, I went to help only a few times with dusting mopping and bathrooms.. it felt good.. I always knew I was domesticated and that I was a good ca...