Bittersweet Life

2010 and 2011 I had head traumas & on 2 occasions was knocked into a tunnel in my mind.  2010 When it happened, I could hear everything but I couldn't respond strait away- 2011 I heard a voice in the pitch black space I was in, I couldn't see anything not even myself, I was unaware of if I was sitting, standing, laying down, No consciousness of my surroundings being abnormal, no fear, no wonder, no concern and I never spoke, I just heard the voice say "you don't belong here!", a Male voice, Strong and certain, "you have to go back".. I woke up on the floor and peeled myself up very weak but managed and cried I had a bad concussion and had to rest a few days.  Twice during the year 2015  1: I was taking medication that was poisoning my blood with out being aware of it I started having an allergic reaction - I knew I felt off but I kept going to work and doing things at home and about 8 days in i had a bad rash and was very weak & shaky inside.. I ...

    Book TiTle: My Scrambled Egg   Chapters  1 My real life  ghost stories;  2  My experience growing up with parents that were/are addicts my children's fathers cheaters liars addicts.. 3  endured abuse in many forms, even by extended family of family. 4  relationships, experience as a mom, my birth deliveries,  5 jobs and growth process..  6  being used as a tool, an assistant in life a go to person for the weight and blame.  7  Betrayal Abandonment,  8 alcohol/drug abuse at a young age & into 20's/30's..  9 loss, Surviving family of Murder victims, unexpected death/loss, Isaac's illness, family of inmates,  10 counseling, addiction/medication in my current life.  11 envy of people who get help w addictions less than people/parents w/anxiety/ptsd/situational depression/mom-brain, 12 Life being at a stand still,  13 chasing my tail and trying new things.. brainstorming,  14 wa...

 As a kid I enjoyed gymnastics and dance. Playing house, building forts, playing Dolls, barbies, & tv shows Care-bears, Rainbow Bright, teenage mutant ninja turtles, Heathcliff, Garfield Muppet babies ghost-busters & She-rah The Princess of Power from He-man. Beginning as a teen I first was a baby sitter @12 then I started smoking on the roof with a friend from school stayed late after a track meet and messed around with boys at the school ditched one day and touched roaches for a first time tho I didn't smoke until later the next year, with my moms boyfriends niece..  I recently decided to refer to myself as Peaches, tho nobody really knows this unless they ride in my car or see my phone connected to the internet, basically my phone knows.. I started working again with someone I can't remember, maybe it was a lady in my complex, I went to help only a few times with dusting mopping and bathrooms.. it felt good.. I always knew I was domesticated and that I was a good ca...

I have always enjoyed writing/typing,, in school for medical administration the typing class was my favorite and was also my most favorite part of my job at the ob/gyn and also at the trucking co and post-tention company i worked for years earlier.. Some days I want to write about everything and the time isn't there later the thoughts are lost.. I have been having these moments come and go for a long time.. While I want to write I'm careless of if it's ever seen... and other times after it's written I start to second guess everything written and want it gone or hidden, where it wont be seen by anyone's eyes but my own.. Painful past times, scars unfolded in a story, maybe useless information or thoughts that elude my mind. So many stories do I dare tell to only be judged To only be ridiculed and condemned.. who reads anymore anyway.., I don't care for gossip or slander but I know in due time someone would make up something to have my book ended so I do not tell ...